Have you ever woke up, and everything in front of you that resembles your life suddenly appears as a lightbulb turning on in your mind as just how much you’ve truly changed? I had that “WOW” moment today.
Today is my birthday. I’m 37 years old. Like I told my daddy, “I may be 37, but I feel better than I did at 27.” In the past, I would want to wake up to a serenade of Happy Birthday to You and spend the entire day celebrating ME. Well, today, I began my day by serving breakfast to the students at my children’s school at their weekly Kids 4 Christ meeting. Later in the day, I spent time praying over and delivering Christmas presents for children in our local foster care system.
I’m not saying these things to pat my own back. I’m telling you this to preface my epiphany this evening.
Also know that I was indeed celebrated today. My sweet sister called me first thing this morning, sang to me, and expressed how much she loves me. Her phone call was followed by a phone call from my precious brother, who also called to tell me how much I am loved. The phone calls from my family continued to pour in throughout the day, and my AMAZING mother took me out to lunch. Special friends wished me well and expressed their love through social media and text messages. All these acts of love and kindness would have been sufficient to fill my spirit, but there was more!There were gifts! On Thanksgiving, my in-laws gave me a headband that will keep my ears warm when I run in the winter. My parents gave me ALL the Lululemon! Pants, a bra (which is BEYOND), and a T-shirt from my local yoga studio, MH Yoga, because they are my Good Vibe Tribe.💕 My sister gave me a gift card to my happy place, Balance 30A. A dear friend gave me a bracelet with the word “FEARLESS” on it. You link your story to your bracelet via the company’s website, and when the Spirit leads, you pass your bracelet on to another fearless soul, and they follow suit. BEAUTIFUL!!! Banks stopped by a local spa and used his own money that he has worked hard for at his job, and he purchased my favorite bath salts. Weston told me, “Happy Birthday” multiple times throughout the day, and he also said, “Mom, since I don’t have a car to go get you a present, I will do the dishes tonight.” They aren’t in the dishwasher “the right way,” but he did the dishes, and he gave from his heart. So, they will stay the way they are as a reminder of the heartfelt gift. My husband worked until nearly 7pm, and as tired as he was, he still stopped by Publix and bought my favorite organic chocolate and a dozen of my favorite Publix roses. I LOVE fresh flowers in my home!!!! He also purchased diamond earrings from the BEST jeweler in our area and our family friends, Herring’s Jewelry, for me a couple of months ago when I had finally lost 100 pounds. So, I wasn’t expecting anything today. Needless to say, the LOVE was palpable.♥️
As I sat and contemplated the day, the gifts, the LOVE. I began playing connect the dots with the gifts, the givers, and how they reflected my life. They all represent where my life is at 37, where my mind, heart, and soul are. The answer….HEALTHY! Everything I received aided me in either physical, mental, emotional, or spiritual health. As I type this, I am weeping tears of gratitude. Gratitude for the people in my life, my TRIBE. Gratitude for my manclan. I LOVE them with everything inside me, and I see that their willingness to give reflects the healthy state of their hearts as well. Gratitude for how much I’ve changed not only in the past year but also over the years. When you finally are rid of the “Me Monster” as they call it in Weston’s K5 class, you’ve grown. You’ve changed. I’ve changed. It wasn’t easy. I’m NOT EVEN CLOSE to perfect, but I’m healthy. I’m simply grateful for ALL the change, even the uncomfortable.
My prayer for the following year is that God uses me to influence change in others, radiate His love, and continue to be present. I desire more change in the physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual. For the first time, maybe ever, I LOVE myself, and that makes me proud, because over the years, I’ve been quite unloveable.
So, to my readers, embrace change. Embrace growing pains. Trust that in the moments you feel so absolutely alone and friendless that God is preparing you for new friends and new friends for you. You’re not alone. You’re changing. You’re growing. Change is good, friends. Change is good!