Friends, I will begin with confession…if you read my last post, you know that throughout this 21 Day Cleanse, I mentioned that I have been hungry. Well, last Wednesday night I was starving, and it was only 7pm. I had eaten supper, but I was so hungry, I had the most horrific headache and the tummy growls were audible. I was so aggravated and flat out HANGRY (so hungry that you’re angry) that I failed! I did. I got a bag of the chips that I put in my kids lunch, and I ate them. Granted there’s only about 12 chips in the bag, and they were gluten free, but I wasn’t supposed to eat them, yet I did. Being the perfectionist that I am, I felt horrible. I cried and was extremely upset with myself. I had let myself down and felt like I had let everyone around me down. I mean you would have thought it was the end of the world. Adam was so sweet. He comforted me and talked firm to me. He basically told me to get a grip and not be so hard on myself. My sister told me the same thing and even told me that being that upset was obsessive and that wasn’t healthy either. They’re right! I do want to be healthy, but I don’t want to be one of these people that are so obsessed with every morsel they put in their mouths that they can’t function. That’s an eating disorder, and I’m not interested. After I gathered myself, I gave myself a pep talk. I reminded myself why I was doing this and how far I had come. I asked God to give me strength and perseverance throughout the remainder of this journey, and then I thanked Him that my headache was gone. Hahaha! I finished the week strong, and I only have 8 days remaining on the cleanse. I plan to finish this thing completely come hell or high water.
After my midweek failure, I received a call from Weston’s school saying he didn’t feel well and needed to come home. He was fine Friday morning, but I went to pick him up, and he was pitiful. He had big plans with his brother to play tee ball in the backyard on Saturday, but when Saturday morning arrived, he said, “mommy, I don’t feel good. I think bubba and me are going to have to play tee ball another day.” Bless his heart! After a Saturday morning trip to the pediatrician in 20 degree weather, we receive the news he has the flu. My kids never get sick. So, it was truly a pitiful sight seeing my buddy just lying on the couch and asking to go to bed at 7pm. Well, this afternoon the pediatrician called back and said his strep culture came back positive as well. Of course it did, because this week has already been so dang fabulous (sarcasm)! Soooooo, the Nichols infirmary has done around 12 loads of laundry, dusted, vacuumed, cleaned bathrooms, and wiped down everything can be wiped down. I’m a clean freak anyway, but when sickness invades, I enter into crazy cleaning mode. At this point, we are praying no one else in the house gets sick, and I’m taking every measure to ensure that we remain well.
While this week certainly had its challenges, it hasn’t been without a HUGE positive. On Friday, I was able to add one serving of organic chicken or fish to the cleanse. This particular photo was my take on Chicken Marinara. It is simply spaghetti squash topped with sautéed chicken, onion, and spinach with homemade tomato sauce. It was delicious! Oh the difference a little meat can make.
While this will definitely not go down in history as my best week of 2018, there certainly were lessons to be learned. I learned that eating that bag of chips was inevitable. It was going to happen at some point, and I know what to do to combat it from happening again, but if it does happen again, I’m not going to beat myself up and freak out over 1 misstep. I also learned to listen to my body. When I feel hungry or don’t feel satisfied, I have to listen but make a wiser choice than a bag of chips. I also learned that a sick 5 year old is an excellent distraction from myself and my thoughts. I’m always happy to learn, however, I just wish life’s lessons wouldn’t hit me like a ton of bricks. I’m also extremely happy to eat meat again. So, adios to this less than stellar week and cheers to a better week ahead!